Phallus Symbol

I realise that some people will do anything perhaps just to gain an upper hand on anything. That includes the perception and projection of power. This is especially so if you have lots of experience and have an idea roughly how to project that and to gain compliance from people willingly, unwillingly, consciously or subconsciously. This ability is coupled with prevailing values, some psychological word play, a lot of figurative arm twisting and some form of latent bribery- of give and take between people of mutual interest.

It is not that I do not recognize that in real life, it is just that I find it chore to always watch every single gesture, and to time that to perfection and in sync with other people's mutual interest. In reality, I know that I have been a victim of alot tomfoolery regarding how I absorb things in class, and really the perception I project out to the opposite sex. I totally recognize that and at times, I was sort of "played out" in this manner. It is not that I do not care, but I really just find it a chore to do things in such a contrived manner that possession is like a manner of simply gaining compliance and acceptance. Perhaps, in this manner, in the conventional world, these people would probably be more successful in getting what they want- and that I do not deny- but I do not see any meaning in just in this particular case: a possession for possession sake.

My assumption in this case is that: for you or for one to act in such a calculated and premeditated manner, you must either be a psychopath with no respect for boundaries or that you must really want it so badly that you would act in a manner which you would give up many things in order to possesses it. Either case, I am not in the business of 1) being Clarice Starling in Silence of Lambs but in a wolf in sheep clothing's way 2) bother with one which obviously puts a price so high that he does not mind being seen, projected or spend as such.

I was watching David Letterman's interview with a young and beautiful actress: Jennifer Lawrence and I can totally relate to that above. He was simply planting in her head to say yes to a figurative "sexual act" by the manner of placing his hands and in phrasing the question in a manner which she could not say no. Either way, she fears offending him or basically saying something that isn't true.

Hence then the after effect would be that in the second meeting, Jennifer Lawrence cannot help but remember that she had said yes to a "sexual act" by way of figure of speech- but in reality, she really did not have a choice at all.

I am not going to act pure or anything or pretend that I am really a saint, and I am not. The difference is that I do it in manner which unambiguously open and always leave open a choice- I do not engage in covert psychological word play- and make the opposite person feel guilty or wronged that she led me on. In other words, she doesn't have a choice but to sleep with me simply because she said "yes" earlier.

Can you imagine if David Letterman interviewed her for the second time- for work or otherwise- and he did the same gesturing again and perhaps creatively switching the question instead, would Jennifer Lawrence have a chance to say no, and then maybe for the third time and the fourth time: do you then see the pattern. And eventually then, Jennifer Lawrence, oh well, might as well. Since she cannot win it, might as well just join in.

And on David Letterman's part, there is really nothing to lose: He will get to keep the job since she is above 18 anyway, and maybe will even increase his viewership and appeal.

In reality, I am a victim of the above myself, which means that my peers and I have been sidelined simply because of this projection of power on the female audience- and well since they have "bribed" my peers somewhat and they are in a position of authority, there is nothing much we can do about it actually. I did not pander to their wants because I did not want to corrupt my learning, even if I have a corrupted mind. Even if I get a lower grade or harder task, I would rather work harder, rather exchange for something as ephemeral as this. I would rather look bad or look stupid and walk out learning a little bit more than having learned nothing at all simply because the teacher gave me an easy time.

The teacher flipped on the words and said one thing one time and said another, another time- well other students kept quiet, well, they really don't care that much because the teacher gave them an easy ride.

I knew everything was premeditate and calculated, I just let it slide simply everyone have short changed themselves. The teacher lost the basic spirit of teaching, the students lost the spirit of learning. Well for the female audience, I can only say that do not try something you are unsure of and think that you can outfox them. Ask yourself, who is on your side, not tomorrow but rather 10 years later and then you will get your answer.

I will leave it to everyone to decide what is best for them.

Nights all.

Eugene

P/S: Look below for the video, and watch how Jennifer Lawrence was so uncomfortable at certain points and how when the sexually-laden questions are asked, where is David Letterman's hands-cue it it's a phallic symbol.