Simplicity

I am a simple man. I want nothing more than basic necessities and simple luxuries, some peace and quiet, and some work that can engage me. Anything else though welcomed, is nothing more than a bonus.

But although I am simple, it does not mean that complexity and trouble would not plagued me. I often take a simple attitude and task to the next level because my mind is simple, my mind is only what I have at hand. Anything else would have to be managed to ensure it's success and completion.

There are some whom have taken admiration to this simplicity and there are some as a result, whom are unable to accept such easy-going attitude as a recipe for success. Indeed, had I been more ambitious, I would have more conventional success and fortune. But unfortunately, my mind work in a way that does not value external rewards but doing a good job.

Indeed, there are many whom have called me disruptive, difficult and negative. And quite frankly, I have never taken all these heart other than the fact they are inconvenient hindrances- preventing me from doing an even better job.

But of course, there are many- in fact a large majority- whom value external affirmation as a demonstration of success. Hence, my criticism- whom could be directed at doing a better job- is often construed as sabotaging their value to themselves and to others. And hence as a result, these detractors viewed this a personal attack and not one of constructive criticism- which might or might not help them.

Very often I ask myself who vehemently defend very benign criticisms or suggestions: Are they more bothered with defending their name or are they more concerned with doing a proper job?

Very often is the former because consequently, many spend their time attacking me and weakening my suggestions and positions then seriously considering my questions or even looking to clarify what I was trying to say.

To some regret, had I held my tongue- perhaps be a little more stupid- perhaps I would have enjoyed a little more conventional success- like promotions and pay raises.

But ultimately, I realised that although my heart was in the right place, it doesn't mean that the other's had the same idea as well. Most wanted visibility, management validations and public recognition.

These are concerns of self-interest- of which is most warranted.

But to a simple mind like mine where the task at hand is paramount- and the rewards would naturally come with it's success, it would almost appear that such self-interested behaviour would ultimately harm one's self-interested outcomes; which at the end of the day, one is judge of the ultimate success of the project rather than the external promotion of one's self-worth.