Movable and Immovable objects

This was written on the train towards town at about 4 something in the noon on 22/1 Tuesday:

I have driven my car for 10 years before selling it last year to fund an education.

The car was not purchased by me- it was given to me when I first got my driving license by my grandma.

The first thing I ever noticed after selling the car was how the car ads in the media made envy burn so badly that it is almost a given to have a car or you just haven't made it.

The fact is that I never felt superior when I was driving a car even when I was schooling. I didn't even ask for it- it was given to me. Hence I have never felt the big hoo ha over having a car or not.

I only recently felt this rather strange fixation with cars and the superiority complex it bestowed on the owners- just to be sure- there was no loan on the car, I owned it and I didn't even felt it was a big deal.

I could have ask for a sexier car of course- but to me the car was getting from A to B and it just so happened that I have something to drive. It was beat up Japanese car with air con breaking down several times after driving for 7 years- of course it was new at first.

My second car was even more surreptitious. One day, I received a call that I was getting a newer car albeit a second hand one and it drove way better than a 7 year car. Again I didn't ask for anything. Hence I have never felt any worst or any better driving a car- maybe it was anomaly I don't know.

The only ever thing I missed having a car is the ability to drive out in the middle of the night to have supper or to the beach and it helps to drive when one is clubbing though.

But then now, these things are not very important and I don't really do these type of things very often nowadays anyways. Besides, it's a ok ride and not a souped up ride then is a chick magnet anyway.

And now when I look out the window and I see people paying through their nose for their car- I found it rather ridiculous anyway. You cannot even afford to pay for the car park fines and you are quibbling over your monthly installments- I get a lot of those- they are rather stringent.

I have seen working class and office class people sweating over a $700 installment on a $2500 take home- really is it that worth it- after petrol, parking and tax and insurance the monthly bill is easily more than $1,000 and you just started work. Seriously. For your information, I always get season parking even I work in CBD because I have zero installment- and it is more than $200 a month.

And even then I found it expensive because with the CBD charges and petrol, it still sets me back at least $500 hence I have never grapple with the idea of loaning for a drive when most of the time- you get from office to home anyway.

Anyway, I don't really blame them- the envy and all the generous photo spread of being this and that- when you are really just a paper pusher is really too alluring. The envy that I get when I open the Saturday pages is such that I must be sexiest person in the world simply by having this vehicle- and then I open the classifieds- and the mileage for a sexy car is less than 10,000 km- and then you know it is an absolute waste of time.

I have no clue about cars really and my idea of modification is finding the most convenient gadget to put my phone and the latest car park charges in town. I can rattle off the car park charges in CBD and town now still.

I should have sold off my car a long time ago- but I was spoilt- I had a car when I didn't ask for it.

It is really difficult to let go of an asset without a liability you see. I only need to pay car park charges and other misc expenses. By the way even in school i paid for everything else except the car. That's why I work and study at the same time

And after driving for 8 years, it is really tough to let go of the convenience that have build up over the years. I wanted to sell it when I started work as I was leaving car at home anyway but by the time, I wanted to, i made more money- so suck it.

By the way, can you imagine telling your colleagues that you drive to work on a working salary- I didn't felt anything then- but I think they must be deeply pissed when I look at all the car ads in the newspaper now. By the way, I drove my BOSS home before, he slammed the door when he left. I thought I was doing a favor- but I didn't even know he is really insanely pissed. But looking back, I think he was having this envy that I didn't really have.

And now, I am having a reversal of roles, my friends have cars and I just sold mine- and I can tell them asserting the superiority complex- and till this day, I still don't really understand the fascination with cars when theirs is still a regular car too. I think all these envy have build up all these years now that they have been waiting this day to press home their superiority.

I just sold my car for a finance post grad and a PR in Australia- seriously and not to pay bloated debts. And most are paying leases on it anyway. Hence I still do not understand their superior complex other than vanity. Anyway, I don't really request for rides nowadays- it's too much of a chore.

Oh by the way, I have another immovable object that it is deep in the money and I can buy a car outright with it. I just didn't want it.

So just suck it.

And just don't show it of to me 10 years later you have done so as well- cause I have already done it at 29.

I told you the good news and not to ingratiate myself to you- and if you feel a need to chase a moving goal post- just remember this post 10 years later- and don't blame me for not sharing your joy.