The exotic

This was written at Starbucks at about 11 something on 22/1:

Disclaimer: Do not take the below literally but as a figure of speech. Essentializing anything is wrong by any context but it is always inevitable and unavoidable.

It might be difficult to explain this hamster in a threadmill concept.

You see the idea of an exotic is the 'other' it is exotic simply because it is different. Ask the American colonist whether 'negro' woman where exotic- they would tell you that you were crazy. They are 'barbarians' to them- and what if you mate with a 'barbarian', it makes you a mongrel right. I know all of these sounds racist but that is the historical context then. 100 years from now- you would either be extremely progressive or really stupid- but now, it just makes one rather stupid if your idea of an exotic is someone you 'deemed' inferior right- and just because he/she is different.

This is extremely racist I know- but this is extrapolating your rationality. I mean if you say you love the person- then sorry all these is crap now.

Let us just say that this exotic person's country becomes extremely prosperous one century later- ah then you will the jackpot- but by then you will be dead. I seriously doubt anyone thinks so far in terms of sex right.

One of the American President was considered progressive now but kept them as slaves then because he fought for their rights but he did some stuff and it was never exotic in first place. I suspect it is a manner of convenience that's all.

Hence there are in some people's mind that different is exotic and therefore positive- must be get their brain checked. Because if that is so- Abraham Lincoln must be really stupid for not treating slaves as exotic. I not saying that all exotics are slaves, I am just checking what is in the little head that's all.

There are several markers of which some people like to used to differentiate the incompatibility. 1) race 2) class 3) socio economic status 4) age

And yup, I have not get hitched for a few years now and no, I acutely aware of all these differentiating factors. But it simply just means that we are different and no simply because people ignore that doesn't mean that I must have a particular urgency to pursue that afraid of being left behind.

For one, I am not young anymore- I am not a spring chicken neither do I pretend to be one. The rest of it well- should not be a factor. Too much is too much.

There is this over-riding concern with having a breakthrough- it is sort of like a coup'de'ta to have something different from the above. Once again I have to preach to you- sometimes, it is really not worth it. Anyone who watch Korean drama with nasty rich in laws- ah, that I can tell you is true. You eat with snout at home and when you eat with them- it is really out of body experience and very uncomfortable.

I was trained to be like this- and it learnt a lot and it is really useful- but the expectations and habits are so different. But it is really hard to have the cake and eat as well. It is so tiring to eat and watch what you eat and how you eat it too- I mean literally.

Ok, assuming that omnia vinci armour: then, you better have all your pride cracked open. Otherwise, just stick with carpe diem- or seize the day.

For everyone who pretends that you can have the cake it as well- like the above- you are better off baking the cake and eating it or sharing with someone. It is a long shot and will always be a long shot- I am not sure why would anyone would have the idea why we have Korean Dramas for: provide the spectacle just so that you can forget about reality.

And just for your info: not all cleaning ladies are so pretty.