Role reversals

You know I sort of just mind business most of time but maybe sometimes people just enjoy seeing others better off than themselves. Hence there is then a tendency to try to destroy everything that they see just to show that they are better than you.

I mean I am quite tired of calling people childish, juvenile and immature-they probably know it better than I do. The truth is that I never quite bother what they call me or I take any of it to heart. All those sniggering and giggling to me just goes one ear in and the other out. Ironically which is what they are so good at- for good advice that is.

In the second place, their aggressive attitude also drove a lot of well meaning people away by the their incessant jibes whom does not have the same thick skin as me. But the fact is that for every jibe delivered- and I am not speaking from a morality tone- is one minute wasting my time listening to them, practical terms that is.

I would be lying if I told you that I do not get angry at them for their insensitive remarks. But the point is that if I had a chance, I would scold every single one of them making such stupid remarks and for driving nice people away. But the point is that the moment I want to open my mouth, they disappear. I always hear the whispers, them walking by, trying to disrupt a proper conversation but I never really actually see them. Sometimes, I do get angry and want to get them face to face but I thought of finding them but I cannot find them among the myriad of faces and so I let it slide. It was not worth the time.

Just now in the train, this bunch of kids- and I am not going to say like a paternalistic, talking down tone, is that, I have done a lot of things that you have done and I have made fun and did what you did to people who most people do not like and I don't even know why I do that. Hence I do not blame you- but let me tell you that not everyone is like me, where they don't give a damn about what people think hence for crying out loud, leave these nice people alone.

I have gang up against a bunch of kids just because I don't like them and - stripped them and mess around with them. I already passed that stage. I have drank beer at 13 with sugar inside and I went to condomania when it first open when I was 13. It is still the same store but in a different name. They never bully me simply because I join in- and so you can leave this I friend you, you friend me thing. I am really way past that. If you want me to buy you a bottle, I can do that but other than that, I am not your friend and I can give no hoots even if you vandalize my house.

I am cool but it doesn't mean that I give two hoots about you. It doesn't mean that I don't act like your parents means that kids, I am the same as you.

I have been with a bunch of kids for 9 months without going them out socially once and I still don't even give a shit hence you can rest assured that in terms of opinions, you last on my list.

This means that I really don't give a damn after incessant trying hence aren't kids the best of passive aggressive attitude. Why you so uncool man. Chillax man.

If you think shabby is good, I have no say and if you think that giggling loudly and making fun of everything from the hair to the shoes a person wear is fun, be my guest- but for crying out loud, leave these nice people on the streets alone.

Actually, I don't give a damn about you people think: when I was 15, my Taiwanese classmate brought a wad of $50 notes and say he was going to bet on some football games and we even gamble on who is going to have the first corner kick, free kick and that's where I learn to gin rummy. But I gave back all of it.

So don't impress me with your brilliant socializing skills, I am really not impressed, there is a reason I took so long to write a post about this issue because I never gave two hoots about what you people think: that is the point. Read all the post since last year, have I once mentioned anything about making comment by mockery. No.

Look listening to rock music and all those artsy fartsy stuff like film, photography and art is an intellectual process to me. To many of you, it might be a faddish thing to do like- following the latest Korean drama or dance. But to me, it is like finding new ideas which I cannot find elsewhere. I don't even buy Beyoncé or any of those Justine Timberlake. My CDs are from like Grammy winning albums which not many people actually hear about. I don't even have a proper pop album- the closest I have is Adele, and she doesn't even really qualify as one.

This makes me by any stretch of the imagination even more cooler than you are- which only listen to mainstream music and pop culture. Hence I really do not know whether you have the street cred to even make fun of me when I have not even started on you. Sometimes, I find it quite embarrassing that these "cool" and "trendy" kids are making fun at me when I have not even discuss with them the difference between an octave and a three string guitar by Green Day.

Let me tell you what is cool. Cool and popular is not about watching the latest entertainment news, cool is about people idolizing you. Back in the days, my classmates want to buy my school uniform off me- I got it from Yangtze kiang. Do you know why, they though it was cool.

Don't even get me started on this popularity thing, go and find my ex classmates and asked them whether I am the cool one or the uncool one. I would suggest that before you want to take on your seniors, go and find some life experience first before you even decide that you want to start on any of the jibes.

But in the future, leave those nice people alone, they were trying to be nice.

And as for you, I watch French New Wave film and I listen to Frank Sinatra while sipping whisky, you are not there yet. Go grow a few wrinkles first.

Nights.