Actually, I have nothing against anyone. But the thing is that people have something against me about everything- when a simply can you do this or can you do that would suffice.
maybe people don't realise that the more different or abnormal you treat me, the normal I treat you because that is exactly what do not expect from me. If one look from my perspective, why should I put in so much effort into something which absolutely nothing to do with me at all.
To me whatever it is, there isn't a need to treat me any differently or any need to treat me in a manner that you deemed appropriate- just treat me in a manner like you would have of the next person. But maybe people expect me to just capitulate just because they treat me differently. You can rest assured that most of time, I really don't give a damn what you thought of me. You might think that I am a clown, a jello or a weirdo. Honestly, if I could- I would rather say it to my face and say it behind my back.
But I digress. The point is that I really don't give a damn what anyone think of me just so long as you give me what I want and do what I paid you to do or the bare minimum expected at a socially adequate level.
Maybe people still don't get that the harder one tries to catch my attention, the more I don't give a damn and the more anyone try to interfere into my matters, the less you would expect from me simply because no one can see both sides of the coin from my perspective.
Just today, I saw big t-shirts reminding of my past actions that people are trying to remind me of what I should or I should not do. Maybe they believed that they are doing something fantastic but really, my brain only works when I have something to do and if I do nothing-it just simply means that I have no intention of doing anything.
Today, I just paid for my visa application to Australia. Personally, I feel the environment is no longer sweet or conducive for me anymore. It feels like everyone knows more about than me than I know of anyone and I do not like that feeling. It feels like I am sitting boiler and a compressor environment every single day and I would like to make mistakes on my terms and experience things the way I see it. Thank you very much.
Besides, I made sufficient enemies in Singapore to last me lifetime and I have no intention of finding each one and every single of them and ask them- what is your beef with me- honestly, I feel that it is not needed because if I did anything wrong, I have given sufficient time to everyone to explain the situation. I don't think I owe anyone anything other than, I wish you all the best in whatever that you have done.
If you do not bother to stand up and tell me what is wrong, then no one should be given any time by me to listen.
Anyway, everything is just in the works but I do not need to see more than I should, I can say without hesitation that if push comes to shove, I would probably get out and maybe the world will be a little better without me having to say my piece- when I never have any intention to say any in the first place.
Bon Soir and Au revior- est de avant.
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