Hope and Truth

I am begin to think this mathematical analogy is extremely useful in explaining my position. actually there is no difference in what I say, the difference is that since it is in math, it gives a veneer of objectivity that's all.

What is the objective of math- it is to find the truth correct. This means that I cannot be wrong if I speak in mathematical terms rights.

Some people believe that life is about being happy and being around people that you loved. I do not have any problems with that. The problem is that there is a false choice between being good and being happy and with people around you.

Let just we have a hypothesis that we have 24 hours and we can either choose to work and train harder or alternatively, we can choose to spend more time with people whom you love. We have then two groups of people which been asked to fill up a questionnaire to fill up the number of hours filled under these two variables. And then they asked to fill up how they rate how happy they are.

Then we form a test the hypothesis that within say a 95% confidence interval, you should be more happy if you spend more time with your loved ones than say honing a particular skill. This means the chances of hitting of a interval within an acceptable range is statistically 95% true. This means that the chances the larger the range, the less true it is. And of course, intuitively, we would know that the former will always be true. Since it is embarrassing to admit that one is good at something because he/she sacrifice social time for something that is he is trying to master- say a computer skill or art. If let's say the survey concur with this conclusion.

But on an individual level, the context itself which is when a person is always put in an environment where he/she have to choose between these two normative values- how true can your survey be. This means that a person who is always given a Hobson's choice and always being pre-judged, the conclusion and hence the hypothesis does not gather the full picture. This is what I mean by a false choice. This means that the survey is in itself flawed because the sample is always being presented false choice.

The survey will not capture this- but simply tabulate and aggregate the results and does not account for the social factors. Suddenly people start to believe the results of this survey, and suddenly viola, it survey in itself fulfils the reality.

That is why, I am never afraid to be alone and to be antagonized and to be put under a spot. This is because, the "truth" or "reality" is further from the survey suggested. I always mentioned about the pig in the abattoir. Do you know who is the pig. I see no point in validating or refuting a experiment aimed at justifying a claim which was already established beforehand. That is the third choice- walk away. Believe all you want, what you do has no business with me.

If let's say I conduct another survey in a controlled environment, this means people are put in box to live among each other without interference from say an overarching authority- do you think that the survey will be different. Think Animal Farm. It is the same thing, literature and math.

The earlier experiment does not take into consideration the variable of the threat of authority. And now do you know why, I always mentioned about the pig in the abattoir. The pig does not know other forms of happiness because it is better to eat from the pen than to antagonize the guards- but the point is that, they are slaughtering pigs just next door.

Then you tell me whether why I am can be contended- living a life close to being alone and almost like a hermit and doing, eating and almost have zero social activities. The difference is that the entire truth has been fudged. This means that either I live like a hermit or be a pig. I am sorry, I have means, I do not need to be a pig to survive. This means that in the survey, I cannot be truly be happy simply because I have always  been presented with a false choice. Why then should I participate or validate and even believe a survey which have no fidelity to the truth. In this case, if you are not even sure of the experiment, this means that I must be doing something right. This means you are not sure or not happy with your status quo.

I am closer to the truth than you will ever be. You just stay there and be happy. And hope, my dear boy. Good luck.

P/S: there is a reason I never want to get too close to anyone- you cannot handle it. It is better that it stay this way but I am a paying consumer and tax paying citizen which have rights and have fulfil my duty. There should be no special treatment- good or bad- unless you want to look bad.

I have served my national service and my reservist and I have paid my taxes when I was working and also pay GST when I buy goods- I have every right to make a feedback when it is perfectly legitimate.

I have called the police three times in the last 3 months because 1) someone was staring into house from across the road, and I called the police to shoo them away. I called the police when my power circuit box was smashed but apparently it was because of the hale storm the other day. I have also called them because the buses which operates just outside my house, press the airbrake constinously for 6 times- which is very unnatural for any proper functioning bus. This is public nuisance in a high density populated area

I have approached the old neighbour upstairs for constantly slamming his furniture even in the middle of the night- and he came back with a he/she say argument and I have spoken to the town council about the inconsiderate and crazy reactions. I have spoken to the town council about the faulty storm drain grille which makes a lot of noise when a car passed and can travel up six floors which is where I stay.

The police have came, the town council have came and even the LTA have called me. In typical Singaporean style, I am sorry you have to fulfil certain requirements before you can make a formal report and you have to note the bus and plate numbers- it was too much of a hassle- and if the thousands of people that lived around here, can't be bothered, I just close the window and switch on the air con that's all. It is not my problem.

But I have every right to make a complain- at least someone came and fixed the storm grille, the police came and shoo those jokers away and they came but say that it is happening around their block- I just have to the word for it, I have the personal number to the LTA guy.

This is my life, I intend to live in a manner which I think is the most palatable to me- I didn't break any rules by the way and fulfilled my obligations.