The Second Coin

Nothing can and will ever replaced work. There will be nothing that can ever be replaced by actually working. And of course, there are some people whom attempt to skew this particular argument by simply making things so easy and comfortable for me that I will lose track of this.

I have never lost track of the fact working and doing something productive is doing something productive. Doing nothing is simply doing nothing. I can rest assure you that the last one year or so was not spent vainly trying to prove that doing nothing will ever work. Of course, there are some whom will begged to differ and will do anything to prove to me that doing nothing is good for you.

I am not sure whether anyone has realised that I have spend one year doing one simple thing: that doing nothing is not a solution but rather picking up alternatives is. I have replace work with selling everything that I have without getting any handouts whatsoever. And even when people make it so difficult for me to work, I looked them in the eye and tell them that they are wrong.

The reason I can do the same amount of work with less time is simply because I spend more time trying how to do things than actually doing it. You never see this process, you only see the end product.

I can safely tell you that nothing fell straight on my platter: absolutely nothing. Everything I have, I do it myself or I make a bet with myself.

People have for a long time make things hard for me than easy for me. Whether they do it because they believed that it was good for me, I do not know- all I know is that I have  never asked for handouts and no one have ever made it easy for  me at all.

Despite of all these discouragements from everyone, I will only smile at them and assume that they say what they say simply because they were afraid of things I do not yet know and I really do not wish to know as well. I cannot force anyone to like me or encourage or help me along but I can tell you that I never bear a grudge to anyone who do.

To bear a grudge against anyone who do is to spend one minute of your time worrying about how to get back at someone whom have a reason to believe in your downfall. That to me is a minute wasted on someone whom does not believe in you. I can safely tell you that every night, I sleep, I soundly like a pig because my mind is not concocting how to plot the downfall of someone else but rather how I can make that person convinced to believe in me.

To believe in someone is to have trust in someone, that to me is more important than anything in this world simply because it makes everything easier for you thereafter. Maintaining it is the hard part.

And even if someone does not believe you for some reason or for reason beyond your control, I always believe that in the dead of the night, everything will haunt you as you sleep. This means that the whole day will continue to reply in your head over and over again in your head- what happen. Such mentality will gnaw you more deeply and incisively than any defeat or insult.

Of course, if everything prove untenable and if the prejudice is more deeply set and there is no way that you can prove otherwise, you can simply move along and wherever you go, you can sleep more soundly than any anaesthesia can give you.

I am not that ambitious person, I can safely tell you that there are simply a lot more important things in life than to prove to everyone your worth and your pride. No matter how big your ambitions are, you are always constricted by what people can do. If people want to get you, they will get you.

The point is to find out why this person have a personal vendetta against you when you are doing your own thing. This means that this person must have something against you for some reason and there isn't a need to prove to such a person otherwise- because reason is not a strong suit in this particular case.

It is in my view that when you are lost in your thoughts and emotions, you tend to get lost in the big picture and if one is incapable to see beyond the narrow scope of the view of one's own- there isn't anything anyone can do except that an epiphany will hit you at some time- and if it doesn't, I can safely say too, the lost is not mine and your's.

That is why, whatever insults or criticisms people can throw at you- it is often the view of the man reducible to that the point of view one can comprehend and not that one knows what one is doing. If one really understands, I can safely tell you that one's point of view is as good as a piece of thrash. It is only as good as what other people value it to be. And if you have acquired a healthy sense of self-importance, I can rest assure you that many people do not give a damn at all.

I have said so many times about that many things are two sides of the same coin, but people always believed that they know better and so well, I can wish you luck about finding the second coin, and if you do, let me know- you have found the holy grail of knowledge.